had a busy week in sch last week and this week will be the same! :( i didnt even have the time to pee ok. and i was like holding my pee while teaching in class!

anyway i secretly think that army guys look much hotter with their caps on u know! because:
1. the cap covers their botak head/super short hair
2. the cap covers half their face which naturally makes them look a lot better. like especially if the army guy has a pimple filled forehead. the cap does wonders ok!!

another thing is that they become super tan aft training and guys naturally look better with a tan right!! it totally doesnt apply to girls but for guys it is different! a bit of tan is like immense difference for them lor. so with their face/hair covered by their army cap and wearing the army uniform, it makes them look much much much better than without the cap! everyone shld support this theory ok. because it totally makes sense and it's so obvious that army guys look much hotter with their caps on lor.

this conclusion is aft seeing like 1000000 army ppl alost everyday i tell u! cck is filled with army camps lah. jurong also! so everytime will see like a lot a lot of them. i sometimes avoid sitting next to them because i think they will be smelly aft training! BUT DONT LOOK DOWN ON CCK BECAUSE IT HAS A LOT OF ARMY CAMPS + FARMS + CEMETRY OK!! it might sound ulu because of these places but it's not! it's a vibrant heartland so everyone shld just stop saying that cck is a super ulu place!! there's like so many ppl staying there lah. so it's very very very not ulu.

watched shutter island recently with yp lim! aft the show i keep thinking whether i'm crazy or not. i was super confused by reality in the show ok. it's like i totally dunno what's real and what's not even aft the show. i really dunno whether leonardo dicaprio is crazy or not!!! :( but i think he is??? cant really decide but it's a nice show aft all! it's really interesting ok. everyone shld just go watch it.

i shld have more dinner catch up sessions with my friends soooon because i feel like we nv have enough time tgt, friends :D okkk i shall go watch my tv now. goodbye everyone.

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
i could really use a wish right now.

DANIEL WU GOT MARRIED!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH! depressing depressing :( i think the whole world all the girls will be very sad. anyway he's married to some hot model soooo yar it's not that bad. at least it's someone hot.

okkk shall blog abt saturday! went to do CIP at Metta Home. it's a pre cambodia trip thing. met at marsiling first to go there. it's not really my first time going to like a mentally disabled ppl's home but it's like my first time interacting with them. got a bit intidimitated coz i really dunno how to deal with this type of ppl. the last time i went to the red cross home for the disabled right we didnt really have to do anything with them coz it's a bit dangerous. like in case we hurt them. so like that time i just went there to clean up. but this time it's both. we played like musical chairs with them. must really guide them to make them follow the rules and all that. and they really act like kids even though they r like really old. feel quite sad for them. but at least they live happily because of their ignorance. i guess ignorance is bliss.

so aft that had a short meeting at kfc then took train to city hall! picked pin up on the way to city hall coz he's a sembawang kid! and we travelled all the way to marina sqaure jack's place to find our friends! haha. met gay gabriel daryl for lunch. then we had this impromptu idea of watching kick-ass. pam joined us for the movie. it wa hilarious ok!! but some parts r like a bit the weird. hahaha. nvm! it's still ok. i enjoyed it. anyway i really feel like watching shutter island!! it looks super interesting. and it's leonardo di caprio ok!!! he is like so good in acting lah.

had dinner with pin and gay aft that! pizza hut. and a really nice and long chat :) it's like some kind of mini pw session. haha. still rmb how we used to talk abt like so much stuff during our pw sessions! i think they were not really for pw. hahahaha.

and ytd was like so so so embarrassing lah. i was at like cck bus interchange going to board 300. 300 is a really crowded bus so a lot of ppl queuing up to board. then i was holding my card BUT i accidentally dropped it on the other side of the railings!! so it dropped to the other bus lane. because my hands r like soooo short i cant reach to get it. it's simply too far away. so u know what i did. i climbed/jumped over the railings in my working clothes!!! like totally unglam. then i had to walk all the way to board my 300. and the whole world was staring at me!!! aft that then i realise it's really embarrassing. haizzz. but nvm! i felt like a ninja during the experience. haha. coz i was moving very swiftly ok!!! fast action sia. forget abt the unglam part coz i'm really super unglam in school one. haha. when u have a lot of things to do and kids to take care of it's natural. u will rather go for convenience and effieciency rather than looking good. looking good no use one. cant get work done. so i'm like super auntie in school one!! haha.

i'm really lazy to blog with pictures although took quite a few pics on sat! because i didnt upload the pics at all soooo haha. nvm. shall be without pictures. anyway jessica liu is super duper pretty and hot in the channel 8 show ok!!! i really like her. she looks so good with that style. too bad she's leaving :(

ok i shall go concentrate on watching my 9pm show now! :D

here's to silence that cuts me to the core

I SAW ELVIN NG ON TV JUST NOW AND I THINK HE BECAME MORE AND MORE HANDSOME!!!!!! :D :D :D

shall blog abt the weekend on another day when i'm less lazy :)

busy busy busy week :(

anyway i think 975 is a really freaky bus ok!! nowadays i always have to take 975 because of tuition then everytime i take i think it's really scary. the bus stop i take from is like 3 stops before lot 1 which is like technically the first stop where civilisation starts for 975. then when i get onto the bus it's like OMG. filled with guys ok. not normal guys. a WHOLE BUS FULL OF FOREGIN WORKERS + ARMY GUYS. it's really really scary!!

oh oh oh i must blog abt my really cute p1 boy! when i went to teach him he said his name is jackson. the whole class calls him jackson. i thot it's like a christian name his parents give him but not in his birth cert. but aft pmt loke told me that he is not called jackson!!! jackson is a name he gave himself!! soooo smart right. he is super cute lah. he call himself jackson. so funny. anyway i went back to teach his class and i told him mr loke say cannot call u jackson, must call u weizhi. then i ask "what's ur name?" he said "weizhi" with a cheeky smile! so cute ok!! he is a handsome kid.

and met xunqi and teng for dinner ytd! :D last time we used to have soooo many meals tgt! for like sec sch and jc days. misss it ok. i really really miss being a student and having all the fun times! but now just have to work. haizzz so sian. one month plus left!

this is a world of dreams and reverie

i'm like seriously broke now! u cant imagine how poor i am :( :( :( oh well. i shall scrimp and save and not eat or do whatever i can to survive on my very very very little money left and wait for my next pay day to come which is.... 100000 days away. it's like 23rd april ok!! so can u imagine how i am going to live for the next 2 weeks???? DEPRESSING. nvm i shall just not spend anymore unnecessary money and not go out! so i can actually survive u know. but anyway next week also not much time to go out because it's gonna be a really really busy week!! something happening everyday. only meeting teng and xunqi on tues and the rest is like not going out or meeting for dinner. anyway, this is good. coz it helps me save on food. sooo for the next next week i'm gonna not go out also so as to be able to go home for dinner everyday! :D good plan. i really want to actually go home at 6pm and reach home when the sun is still arnd. instead of reaching home late at night, being really tired every single day.

anyway there's nothing much to blog abt this week. OHH had sports day on thurs. quite an interesting experience. sports day as a teacher is really different from sports day as a student. soooo i had to go to sch like really early. must reach by 7.15 and being a really responsible teacher, i reached at 7! great job right! like really early for sch. if only i could do that when i was in SA... but u know what. i left home the same time as i left my hse last yr to go to sch but i reach MUCH MUCH MUCH earlier. it's like i will only reach SA at 7.30 if i leave at that time but now i can get to sch by 7 :D

then i had to like help out with the p2 attendance taking. a lot of p2s were late. and just be4 setting off, we have to sort them out into their houses. and the wonderful 2E dont even know what house they were in! so had quite a lot of probs. and the best thing is that at like the last min, i realised that NO ONE took the attendance for 2B because their teacher is on MC!! so it's like panic time. ran all the way down to GO to get the attendance file but couldnt find it. so i just took a paper and wrote down their names plus house. luckily i know all of their names! then followed the p2 + p3 ORANGE house ppl on the bus plus some p6-ers too. my goodness. the boys r just so tall!! i dont seem to rmb that pri sch boys can grow so tall leh.

when we reach there it's like quite chaotic coz we were the last bus. so had to chop chop bring them to their seats. then jeremy and i tried to find mac's BUT cannot find. i think the map bluff us sia. and for the rest of the sports day GUESS WHAT I DID??? haha. being really afraid of the scorching sun, i decided to sit at the upper most row of the VIP section! the one without the nice nice chairs coz there is like NO SUN AT ALL. so was like beside the score keeping teacher and the rest of the slack ppl. ok it's not that we r slack. it's just that we dont belong to any house, so we just sit there to stay as a neutral party! :D watched the sports day without the excitement as to whether my house is winning or not because i belong to NO HOUSE. but it was quite interesting. can see who is the really zai ones.

OH OH OH u know i was super impressed with this p6 girl!!! she's really good. all the teachers were like WOAH. she has super long legs and obvious build for sprinting. and once she run it's like ZAI TTM. she is soooo good that she has this really big big big lead for the 100m race. she really won the race easily. and she was also in the 200m and the 4x100m relay race. it's basically everything lah. she is super good ok. for 200m she act like slack slack at first then the last 50m or so, she just chionged with super super big steps at a really fast speed! we were all shocked at how she can catch up so fast. then for the relay, her team screwed her. her team was like last by the time they passed her the baton and the rest of the teams were like WAY AHEAD of her already. they had really really a lot of headstart BUT BUT BUT SHE CAUGHT UP. my goodness!!! she just run like the wind. REALLY OK. not exaggerating. she came in 3rd even though the rest were like way ahead of her!!!! we were all like saying DSA HER !!! she's really good. but i dont know what's the best sec sch for track so i dunno what sch to DSA her into but she is an absolute DSA talent. one teacher was like saying she shld be talent scouted.

and i had a really lame job. i was some sort of cheering judge. so i have to judge the different houses according to their cheerleading. really lame. oh yar and the standard was like .... so i dont know what score to give. hahaha. there were like 3 of us judging and we just anyhow anyhow. compared to the st marg's cheering standard, their standard is like really low. but nvm lah. they r only pri sch kids.

aft the sports day end had to gather the children to go on the buses and all that. it was MESSY AND CHAOTIC. it's really scary ok. i super scared all the p2s loose their way because it's just a mess. a lot of them came up to me asking where their house is. haizzz. and when we got back to sch it was even worst. cpz the p2s were all in their houses so they cannot gather them in class to take attendance, and some of the p2s were being dismissed already! so we cannot tabulate the numbers and all that. so in the end it was a mess also. a lot of them were waiting arnd to take attendance before they can go u know! and the teachers who took their attendance like went missing. so the form teachers had to kaki come and recognise their kids to tell them to go. just to keep track. then there's like 2 or 3 classes their form teachers on course. soooo in the end i had to recognise what class they were and make sure that their parents come before i let them off. i must like really see their face and take note of who is the one i dismissed. then also bring all the unclaimed children to the steps there to wait for their paretnts. sooo it was really a mess.

i just realise i blog super a lot abt the sports day!! haha. ok i shall stop soon coz my post is like too long!! ohh recently i just had a chat with a new friend and i'm amazed how our thinking and likings r all so similiar. despite having a bit of age gap between us. i'm probably getting old. and she tried to intro her brother to me ok. a 4A's RJ person. she was like saying, eh u same age as my brother want me to intro him or not?? he's very good one. and he's very handsome too. i totally LOL-ed ok. if he looks like POT i totally dont mind ok!!!!! hahahahahaha.

and i realised that i keep thinking abt random things when i see stuff on the streets. really embarrassing random stuff that i shall not say on my blog! haha. but i think i'm becoming crazy sooooon!!

then we'd sing along with the crowds, beneath the candy coated clouds

ok i shall blog abt the science centre trip that i went for on thurs! :)












i think science centre is a really cool place ok coz there r like a lot of fun science stuff. i know i'm a nerd at heart ok!!! haha. anyway it's really a great place to learn. soooo the whole level of p2 kids made their way to the science centre on thurs and i think they terrorised the visitors! running arnd and being super excited. making a lot of noise too. i was supposed to be attached to 2E but be4 we set off mrs jamal asked me to bring 2F to the toilet and assemble them first coz she was busy. and i took 2F for this week because their teacher went for a course. so i did all the stuff and had to take care of attendance too plus tell the number of ppl to jiahui. then there was this girl from 2F who was like SUPER SCARED that we were gonna abandon her and leave her behind at science centre. IRRATIONAL FEAR. she was crying like crazy and clinging on to her father. so mrs jamal had to take care of her. so she asked me to take 2F for her first until we get to the science centre. shared a bus with 2E and all that and had to do some admin stuff. and i had to pass 2F the tickets also which they were all super duper excited abt! haha.













they keep asking me what is the picture on the ticket ok!
"is it an alien?"
"is it a monster?"
so cute! but i had to disappoint them in the end and tell them it's actually a tree with like a lot of electricity stuff. haha.













teacher ticket ok!! dont play play :)

anyway i ended up being attached to 2F coz when we were at the treehouse i took them and all that so might as well just follow them right.

took a few pictures at the treehouse and they r all super enthu abt it ok. when the boys came up i scared the treehouse break coz they kept jumping. i was also scared that they will fall out of the hse coz they love climbing!!















so next we when for a break. i know! very fast right. haha. because waterworks is aft that so we go for break first then got more time at waterworks which they kids love! i had free food u know. they got snacks for the teachers. :)















i didnt really go for the waterworks with the kids coz i had to babysit 3 boys! 2 of them forgot to bring extra shirt so they cant play then 1 boy dont like to play with water. haha. funny right. so i was in charge of them and had to bring them arnd while the rest were playing waterworks. zainul danish and jiaqing! they r really very cute lah. super active. keep running abt and being super fascinated at stuff. especially at ispace. i played with them and all that but had to catch up with them when they r running wild! zainul keeps shouting at ppl to follow him and to come see this see that. i think that's the really adorable part abt children because they r curious to see everything and super enthu. when u see them do that u will be very happy. haha. so i explained some stuff to them also because they obviously cannot understand the info given on the boards.











aft waterworks the whole class went for a tour at ispace which i already went be4. but everyone was really curious so mrs jamal decided to bring them there for a round. aft that we headed to the ecogarden to complete the worksheet! in search of certain plants and trees. that was really tiring coz we walked the whole garden to search for like a few trees. and we cant find at all!! no matter how hard we tried we just cant find that tree. it's like crazy ok. i walk until i wanna die. all the kids r soooo tired also. in the end called and asked another teacher just to know that they cut away the trees like 2mths ago. RETARDED! search for a non-exisiting tree.

















aft this tiring journey we went back to the entrance to wait for the bus. haha. doesnt seem like a long trip but trust me. if u had to look aft children for like 5 hrs straight u will be super tired by then. having this kind of field trip is really draining for the teachers coz the children r all so young. u have to constantly worry abt them meeting with dangers, like running arnd and falling into the point or fall from a very high place or worst still wonder abt and go missing! sooo there's actually a lot of supervision to do and controlling. classroom management is already really tough so outside class management is even tougher! it's like open space ok so to control the kids is really not easy!!! anyway i really take my hat off those teachers who can control children really well. they must have studied child psychology. really need to have skills and experience to discipline the kids properly!

i shall post a photo of this really cute boy from 2F!!










his name is Farhan and he is super adorable ok. loooook at his smile! but u know what. he likes to cry a lot. haha. have to like comfort him and all that. and he also loves to go to the toilet! so i always stop him from going coz he always lie to me very urgent.















and 3 of the naughtiest boys from 2F!! Ezra Zainul and WeiJun. haha. really active but i like them still :D there's still another quite hard to handle one Gallen! always running abt and talking in class. ohh and not forgetting nicholas tooo!! i think the boys r really fun to hang out with when like i'm playing with them or what. but in class is forget it lah. i get really agitated one!

anyway i really enjoy hanging out with these children. the way they talk is like so innocent and so curious. it's like they enjoy everything even small little cheap thrills. i really love the times when i enjoy such stuff also. and they really forgive and forget easily. aft fighting they can make up immediately! and talking to them is like really easy because they r simple minded and not as complicated as older ppl. it's like so much more enjoyable to talk to them than to talk to ppl my age or older. it's like we lose the child-like nature of ours and become really viscious ppl. but oh well that's life. that is why i really like to hang out with kids so much even though my intellectual level decrease sharply! cant use bombastic words anymore because i always worry they cannot understand me! but i believe that everyone has the child-like character in them and if all of us can actually bring out this sincerity and honesty to interact with ppl, the world will be a much much much better place. it's actually quite impossible coz as ppl grow up the world pollutes their minds and everyone becomes the selfish hypocritical person that they r now. i bet everyone has fake moments lor. it's inevitable to use it in the world today. u gain more if u act nice to everyone. but the keyword here is ACT. but we cant help it too. that's why the world is such a shitty place to live in.

whatever lah we shall just look on the postivie side and be glad that there r still friends by our side who r true to us and not just faking only!

sooo on sat woke up super super early in the morning to travel all the way to the east again. seriously the travelling is like super depressing ok! had to reach Changi Village Jetty by 9.30 but i think we were late! haha. we were like at pasir ris at erm 9.27. met up with the girls first on the train be4 travelling to pasir ris to make our way there. queued up for the changi nasi lemak to da bao for lunch! still waited there for a while for the guys plus one girl to come. and sat on a bumpy boat ride to ubin! ubin is really ulu ok. i mean it's a great place for cycling and for nature stuff but if u ask me to stay there i wont lah. i'm not a nature person at all because there's like 1000000 mosquitoes which is super grossss. and the sun is so hot and the ground is so muddy. i think i sound really spoilt but that's the truth. i wont enjoy staying there. i know that there will be older ppl who really likes it there, the slack slack lifestyle but for me not really. haha. anyway did like some activities there to prep ourselves for the cambodia trip.












the girls on the boat and RichManLand ppl at ubin jetty.

i think this ubin thing is quite a good experience for us because it prepares us for what cambodia is going to be like. i think the place we stay in cambodia is not as bad as the ubin one but still it's like nature, the sun and everything. most importantly, cut off from the world. sooo it will be BYEBYE WORLD for 2 weeks and being isolated. i think it was also a good experience for us to meet each other and get to know our teammates more. i dont know anyone except for gel lam. got to know a few ppl better and talked to them a bit. shld at least familiarize with the ppl that i'm gonna spend 2 weeks tgt with. cut off from the world with them too. although i didnt stay for like very long but at least get to know those who were there and i think the grp is actually quite ok. at least we r able to communicate and work tgt. there's more to come in getting familiarize with my team members but that will be like for later dates! haha. more meetings coming up.

watched nodame with teng tooooo :) :) :) it was hilarious ok!! it's super nice. i love nodame cantabile. i love the music that they feature there and all the classical stuff it's like they way they depict it is super gooood!! had a chat with teng abt piano music and all that. haha. coz nodame inspired us ok!!! walked arnd with teng also at marina! did only window shopping. not even window shopping coz i look only nv even try. if i try the stuff right i will confirm wanna buy it! so i dont wanna get tempted further coz i need to save money! haha. i ran away from temptation ok!!!! had a great time with teng! talked and shopped :D we shall watch the 2nd part of nodame tgt ok!! the finale. coming up soooooon. so excited!

ok next week will be a save money week coz i need to pay for my cambodia trip and running out of funds soooon :( i think i shld be more frugal in my spending but i just cant help it and buy a lot of stuff. also eat a lot of good food. haha. like nice stuff. i dont really eat canteen food in sch and all that even though it's really cheap. coz i find them a bit gross. sooo the money spent on good meals is really like killing me :( gonna save more money and go find more money to earn! :)

if you were a beautiful sound and the echoes all around, then I'd be your harmony

i is sadgalzz91 because gel lam rejected my love! :( :( :(

anyway i realised that most of my blog posts r just abt stuff that happened in my life and it's all like rather superficial stuff but i really dont know what else to blog abt. i find it like so weird to blog abt my emotions because there's really nothing much to say. ok lah i will blog abt being like really happy or sianed or angry or whatever. but i dunno why i just cant really rmb emo times. not like most of my friends their blogs all abt their deep thoughts or feelings or whatsoever. i dont really rmb like my emo times coz i think they r apparently really short. like i kinda forget aft a while soooo... i dun really have a feeling to blog abt them. and my life is soooo boring where got emo-ness popping out right because nothing ever happens!!!!!

i think that some ppl who likes to be sad then like cry to attract attention right is really quite disgusting! i think if u r sad dont go affect others because sadness is not to be spread but to keep to urself! unless u cannot stand it then cry lor. haha

yar i just dont know why i dont really have emo or deep posts leh. maybe i too superficial that's why. but i'm not ok! so i dont understand.

and i just wanna say that SCIENCE CENTRE WAS FUN TODAY. gonna blog abt it with pictures soooon :) coz i really wanna rmb days like these so when i read back i will smile. dont keep sad posts or emo-ness in ur memories coz when u look back u will just feel sad. so all the sad stuff just dont post abt it and forget forget forget ok!! it's really easy. dont go rmb it!

humans r funny creatures. they just like to rmb all the hurt and pain and sadness in their life and nv let go of them. i dunno why we humans like to torture ourselves like that so friends who keep recalling the unhappy days PLEASE JUST LET IT GO. because it does u no good and it also affects ppl arnd u sooooo why not just throw it away right. i dunno why ppl still like to keep these type of memories like some kind of treasure.

and u know it's harder to cry than to laugh. sooo i think God just want us to be happy and smile more instead of cry!

ok i think this post is quite a not superficial post right?? told u i'm a deep thinker!!! dont play play. yup and i shall go sleep soooon now so i will stop here :D

as love sweeps over the room 'cause we tend to make each other blush