i think of tmr i SIAN TTM. :( all the lessons and everything. it's so so so tiring and torturous! :( :(

i got a cute file :D :D :D yay. i keep shopping for stationary. haha. i love the heartland shopping malls because i can shop in shorts! :) although the lians density is quite high but i think better than the really act cute lians in town or whatever. and it's so much more enjoyable coz u wont feel bad being a loner. yup... i shop alone. but i think it's quite fun leh. at least dont need to cater to anyone. so i just walk arnd and everything at my own pace and leisure :)

HAHAHA i hate pin's reaction it's damn hilarious

yong pin...carousel ride says:
haha seriously?
what a perv

it's super funny in my context ok!!! coz i totally didnt expect this.

anyway something funny happened today. as in it's funny to my parents. they were laughing at me. so sad rite. :( i think i should be more realistic from now on!

and and and I REALLY LOVE MY FRIENDS! :) :) :)

from gel's blog :)

Friends for life.I am so glad to have this group of friends that will always be there for me :D Thanks guys! ha. My primary school friends totally rock! 6 years of friendship! :D How amazing and special! These are the people who grow up with me and stand by me all the while! Love u guys really alot alot! :D Meet up soon again! HA!

and xunqi! :)

The past one week has been filled with ups and downs! But whatever it is, im just to thankful to have friends who care! Thanks to the six of you + SMGG :) im so glad everyone's opening up now! More H2H to come alright! :D

and pin said

yong pin...carousel ride says:
anw i'm glad i've got friends like u guys... thats like an achievment in itslef alr
hahas

awwww.... so sweet!!! that's why i love all of my friends!! haha. i like the sudden outbursts of emotions. like everyone will just take turns feeling that we are so valuable to each other. but seriously friends r like really important in life. :D :D :D

You don't have to call anymore, i wont pick up the phone
This is the last straw, dont wanna hurt anymore

i have like arnd 30mins to finish this blog post and go watch my show :) everyone shld go watch it coz it looks very nice. it's this new show by da dong and yang chen lin!!!!! :D :D :D i love them.

anyway nothing much happened on mon coz i totally cannot rmb what happened. i just rmb that the 4H2 lectures were not that bad and i dunno why. OHH WE HAVE A NEW TIMETABLE NOW!! YAY. no more 4H2 lectures in one day :) :) :) rocks man. mr tan is the best!

so tues went to meet with besties. had dinner at clementi tgt. and as usual just talked a lot. haha. oh yar i post the pics already rite! :) i love talking to them. even though we r all in different schs but we know a lot abt each other's lives! it's a good thing that we stayed so connected to each other :) it's like we r all different schs since sec sch but we can still stay so close which is really rare. yup. i hope like 20 yrs down the road we r still like that! :) :) :)

ohh stayed in sch be4 that to study in the lib with pam daryl and gabriel. and check out daryl and gabriel ok.










this is what they r doing in the lib ok!! instead of mugging. tsk.










homogeneous sleeping style! haha.

pam and i were like laughing to ourselves when we saw them soundly asleep for SUPER LONG.

ok go on to wed. erm... had training yup. couldnt finish econs which is so so so sad. training was just teaching j1s how to bowl and everything. so it wasnt that bad. but a particular incident happened when we r running. oh my so boy crazy. we were not even asking abt them but she just cut in and assumed we r asking abt the boys. so aft training rushed for piano lesson.

studied in sch on thurs. spent like 1.5hrs doing 1 bio qns!!! :( i totally hate bio now. i hate mugging bio because it's so confusing and boring.

mugging session with SMGG. met yiwei to meet the rest at cathay starbucks. talked and everything like for quite long. haha. then yiwei left. we migrated to B1 to have food. brenda left for church. then started studying. haha. so didnt study a lot but still managed to do a bit of bio. ohhh MARKISM for the day. haha. it was so funny and profound!!!! i love all the talking sessions with SMGG :) :) :) we r really a random grp of st marg's girls that got tgt that's what make this random friendship really valuable :D so we were like talking abt this 10 yrs pact. like will we still be like that 10yrs later.... hmmm. i hope so. we can still continue to meet up even aft we graduate because i dun think i will ever find friends like my pri/sec/jc friends. haha. all these grp of close friends really made my life amazing :D

yar so i was thinking all of us shld be thankful for the friends we have and the lives r enjoying now even though it's getting competitive and stressful. but i think once we go out to the society everything will be so different and i'm gonna miss my sch days A LOT. like all the friends i have now. pri sch clique, 4/4 clique, HMT gang, S19 clique, SMGG every single one of them. yup. all of u r really good friends.

it makes me wonder who my future friends will be. or will i even have any future friends... anyway i'm just happy with what i have now! :D :D :D

We don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are

ok i'm gonna sleep like very very soon but i just wanna post the pics of the fabulous dinner with zhang cai and gel on tues :D :D :D haha. i love meeting them coz we will have endless things to talk abt and funny happenings :) and we r friends since like pri sch which is super rare!!! hahaha. i love you ppl k!!! :) :) :) :)






















this shot has the very street feel!!! :) and u can see zhang's retarded face thinking of how to do an 'E'! hahahahahahahaha.













love this pic!! coz it's like got this very very abstract feeling taken by cai!! her hands very long lor. it's like abstract and we look very cool and artistic in it!

ok there's this unglam pic of me but i shan't post it and i will nv post it because i have enough UNGLAM-NESS in my life!! :( like everywhere i go ppl say i very 'glam'. yup i know. i'm the best :D

anyway have to sleep soon. coz i already broke my 10pm sleep rule. nowadays it's always 10.30-11pm sleeping rule :( sad rite. it's so late!!!

And don't you know my heart is open, it's putting up a fight

wanted to watch daryl run today BUT!!! :( WE WERE TOO LATE :( :( :( it's like so sad. i really wanna see. but GREAT JOB DARYL :D r u touched that ur dearest PW mates r there ??? haha.

anyway went for dinner aft that at lot 1. pam met us there. new york new york. i nv eat there be4 ok!!! i love root beer float. it's very yummy! i rmb how i used to always go A&W for root beer float! it's the best k. talk talk talk at new york new york. then had to leave coz there were a lot of ppl. so transferred to the top floor of lot 1. had a nice journey home because it's so short!!! hahahahaha. i really love going to places near my hse. it's the best.

I won't think about you when I'm older, cause we never really had our closure

today is like WTH day.

pls go watch GOSSIP GIRL :) :) :) IT'S VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY NICE. LIKE U WILL GET SUPER ADDICTED TO IT. I WANNA WATCH GG. I SERIOUSLY WANT. THEY R SO FREAKING HOT. AND AND AND IT'S SO INTERESTING!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

spammed like a few episodes at teng's hse today. haha. i know we very lag. but gossip girl rocks ttm. :D

zhang was right!!! white horse is a sad song.

i want to start doing tutorials soon. but i dunno what tutorials i have leh.... ok i shall prepare for econs. :) oh and i just realised i seriously cannot look at ppl who r like >10cm taller than me. coz it's not at my eye level. it's easier to look down than up u know!!! like today i saw this baby who looks like my neighbour's daughter sitting in a pram. and i thot the person pushing the pram was a stranger but IT WAS MY NEIGHBOUR. because he is >10cm taller than me. ok i think >20... maybe even more!!! like maybe >25cm. yar so i cannot see him easily!!!! but i said hi in the end lah.

anyway i shld grow taller. since i only can see limited ppl because i know there r A LOT of ppl who r >10cm taller than me. then maybe i can stop knocking into others coz i cant see them. embarrassing lah. to keep knocking into ppl!!!! :( and maybe i can jump >156 for my standing broad jump if i grow taller. jocelyn jumped so effortlessly lah!!!! see i can only jump my own height. it's super saddeningzzzz :( :( :(

Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings now i know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up a stairwell

i knew it a long time ago. but i just cant help it.

black friday!!! and sch celebrated vday today. thank u my dear friends for ur lovely presents :D i didnt study for bio ytd nite coz i was doing vday stuff. so i think i failed. prepare for a retest! hahaha.

i love the sajs track boys!! everytime we train they will have training too. and they r just soooo adorable ok!!!! :D :D :D cuteness ttm. i want to bring them home! xunqi deb and i were like talking abt kids and how cute little girls/boys are when they do certain things. then the irritating woman said GIRLS BE SERIOUS. YUCKSSSSSS like she is very serious. oh yar she is. she's a boring person who think that she's very good. but no matter how serious she is, she still suck ttm lah. haha i like catching balls today! :D coach always throw it very high and it's very scary but it's so exciting! :) i rather have skills training than gym training. i hate gym :(

i think it's super pathetic. like always trying to.... and waiting to ... it seems like we will nv get there. ok it's not seems. yar we will nv get there. it's just very tiring trying to guess trying to see trying to know .... ok it's only me who's thinking abt it. u will nv care because u dont even know. nvm u will nv notice. i shld just give up. i shld just stop. i dont want to pretend anymore. erm... yar actually i dont think anyone will understand what i'm talking abt coz erm i also dunno what i'm talking abt!

ok since it's going to be vday in like 1 hr.... i shall say I LOVE U FRIENDS :)

ohh and just read xunqi's blog. yup i love SMGG too :D

oh yar oh yar!! survivor is back. GO WATCH :D

i was blown away, what can i say

haha bitchy week this week!!! lots of bitchiness. cca fair was super boring today. i was bored to death. i dont like a crowded sch with so many j1s. i want something empty. more space. more air. :(

but i remember, what it feels like beside you

super tired!!!! :( :( :(

wasted a whole weekend. like 12hrs doing NOTHING but picking up balls!!! :(

went to ms ye's hse in the aftnn. was supposed to meet some ppl at paya lebar in the end EVERYONE WAS LATE. aft waiting for 20mins like an idiot at the mrt station. there was even this woman who asked me to siam away from my waiting area because she wanna take picture of the STATION SIGN!!! she's crazy. anyway i was waiting for very long lugging my very very very heavy things. calling ppl like crazy. called gay in the end at took her cab to ms ye's hse.

played wii which was the bombzzzz :) i love playing wii coz it's so fun. but there was certain factors that hindered the fun to reach it optimal level. it was so irritating ttm. :( :( :(

chatted with gay + ms ye when the guys r enjoying their wii session. then a bit of mahjong which i totally suck at. everyone shld have seen the look on gabriel's face when he asked ms ye how to flush her toilet!!!!! IT WAS HILARIOUS. seriously. i've nv seen anyone asking this qns so serious in my life. i totally burst out laughing!! he's really a baby ape!!!













a group photo at ms ye's hse! :D

then when daryl had to leave everyone left with him for dinner. such an important child. had to sqeeze in ms ye's car again but i certainly will not want to sqeeze with a particular someone. had steamboat for dinner. yay ms ye treated us :D invited weili's gf too since she called at the right time. it was like meet the family session! hahahaha.

gay and i met this really irritating woman in the toilet. she's crazy. i shall not say more but such ppl shld nv be in existence. aiya but aunties r like that one!

so aft that sat until 8.30 and realised we didnt have time to travel to boon lay to meet gabriel coz we were still at parkway! called daryl and LPO was giving him a ride so i asked him to fetch us. haha. LPO was so kind to drive us!! so we went to jp in search of gabriel then travelled to NTU to find the place which was super hard to spot. we just went NTU to sleep!

did one qns of gp then ended playing bridge with sheryl pam and daryl. aft that was bluffing session with gabriel joining us. they r super cunning in bluff too!!!! esp gabriel. secretly win the game! and daryl just keep saying bluff!!! he's a liar. i'm such a honest girl lor. in the end when the whole game only left daryl and i, i had to take this WHOLE STACK of cards GG TTM. :( i dont want to play anymore!!!!

went for a long walk with pam gabriel and daryl. irritating cat follow us. i really felt like whacking it lah!! keep following arnd. we did something very hilarious to it!!!! hahahaha. shall wait for gabriel's picture.

then went back to sleep on the hard floor :( i had a sleeping bag but it was still hard. but being so tired i fell asleep immediately. the next thing i know pam was kicking me waking me up!! :( i seriously didnt want to wake up ok.

then was hell the whole day. stuch at picking up balls for the handball session with pam and daryl. we almost died! i was so tired that i fell asleep unknowingly. towards the end we had our own slacking session. the food was so shit lah!! but i think that the NTU ppl r very nice :) working with them is not bad coz they will chat with us and all that. haha.

i made a new friend. his name is MOMOKUN but he is really called DOMOKUN haha. they just changed it. it protects us but gets whacked in return :( they r all very evil to him. he's our new bestfriend. i think daryl likes him a lot because he protected daryl a lot. that's the price of standing at the back! sometimes i will have this urge to grab the balls and throw at those ppl who keep playing our handball game!! the sec sch boys were the most irritating!!!!! cant stand sec sch boys. childish and rowdy!













OUR NEW FRIEND ! :D so sad it's breaking :( because of the evil doers!!!










saw xijin at vertical marathon! she's very fit she went to join!! haha. she cliumbed 60 stories lah!!! strong girl! :D

went home tired and totally drained. had to carry bulky items home. walked a long way back :( yup just went home watched a bit of poseidon then sleeeeeeep!!!

today was a tired day too. it's a sad and tired day because of certain factors!!!! :( : ( :( totally shitty. it's our BITCHY WEEK this week and there's surely a lot to BITCH abt aft what has happened!

i dont mean to be so spoilt or what but it's really MINE. as in ok i didnt buy it or what but i booked it like long ago!!! i really want that. like seriously A LOT. that's why it's quite pissifying that i didnt get it. i know that it's not really mine and everyone has the right to just get it. BUT!! I JUST CANT STAND IT. ok lah i might sound very spoil and wrong but if i really want it that means i want it. if not i cant help being upset ok!!!!

ok that sums up the sad day :( depressing. i even fell asleep during econs. that's how bad the conditions were! :(

kidnap my heart, take me with you

my whole body is aching all over!! i feel very old lah. lactic acid everywhere in my muscles!! :( :( :( super tired. nowadays training is like shit. so tiring lah!

was supposed to wake up early to go for bio lect. I REALLY WANNA GO!! but today i woke up with my whole body muscle aching. i thot it's 7am BUT I REALISED NO!!! IT'S 8AM!! :( my mother said she woke me up but i didnt want to wake up. seriously i totally didnt know my mother woke me up! so in the end couldnt go for bio lect. coz if i go i will reach at 9.15 which is very stupid!

haven blogged abt the week! haha. always too tired to blog. coz i have to sleep at 10/10.30 everyday :)

ok erm mon had a VERY LONG DAY. 4H2 lectures striaght in a row then econs tutorial. triple econs day! but mr peh was very nice he came only for like 15mins for the 4.30 lesson coz we were all so tired. aft econs rushed to meet SMGG went to cathay starbucks for coffee. supposed to study but i think we ended up talking more! haha. got a really cute lock with xunqi! yay!!!

tues was chem remedial which was very stupid. just did test aft test. yucks. then studied in sch with the babies. pam + gabriel. i shall study more in sch since i dont do anything at home! :)

wed had training and we had to run in the rain!! :( someone was really lousy as usual. always running the last but wants to set the pace. and likes to talk as if she's very good. i totally cant stand her. had a lot of pt on wed because of the rain. took a long journey home with xunqi because of the rain :(

thurs was another mugging in sch day. finished my bio tutorial and did math tutorial too :) i find doing tutorials really help me. :D got home and just slept.

fri was shit training again. got a gym coach and it was toturous. gym training really sucks :( did only a bit of skills. skills with this coach is quite fun. haha. and we all agree that he's a charming man BUT haha. i shall not continue. anyway it rained again. so it's like training in the rain which is very dirty. had a shiok shower aft training. dinner with gabriel pam daryl. went with gabriel to get his stuff. then aft that off to taka to meet with teng + xunqi. walked all the way to far east to find xunqi's wallet. dead tired by the time i got home. watched tv for like 2 hrs then immediately went to sleep. dunno why i still cannot wake up on time :( keep telling myself to wake up at 7 but i didnt :( :( :(

ok going ms ye's hse soon to meet up with the rest of the class :D yay wii time again!!!

maybe we're trying, trying too hard