i was reading my past posts. and i read my post last yr for may. only 2 pathetic posts. one of which, on may 10, says the following:

anyway my life is super uninteresting and unexciting. i think the most exciting thing is like drawing loci, trying to derive organic chem structure etc. :)

and i dont know which is worst. that i was a total mugger and didnt have a life at all in j2 or the fact that i still find doing all these really exciting now.

but seriously, dont u just find organic chem really fun, like some kind of puzzle solving thing and math sooo sooo intriguing when u actually solved something? i dont know how i became such a nerd, it's kinda freaky. i think i'm suffering from mugging withdrawal symptoms.

but though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

first of all thanks for all the bday celebrations friends!! :) thanks for ur efforts and wonderful presents :)

sooo on sat was pitstop. played like a lot of games and i dunno why i keep losing. maybe it's because the ppl i was playing with were really meeeaaan. hahahaha! had a lot of fun just laughing and playing stupid games. i think we shld have more of brainless games coz it's really good u know. they r fun and u dun need to wreck ur brains. that's what games r for right? i dislike brain teasers/ any game that needs to strategize. it totally sucks lah. so hard! anyway enjoyed just spending time with the same grp of ppl :D haven been tgt for quite long already. last time was every single day with lots of intensive meetings too but now everyone has their own lives and busy with their own stuff soooo :( i think this applies to ALL grps of friends that i meet u know. it's really funny how ppl become nostalgic aft separating.

tues had a great dinner of ramen with the really nice egg!!! hahahaha. <3 it. and met up with the girls full force :) how i miss our times aft training sitting at the caf talking gossiping and doing a lot of other stuff. seee how i said abt becoming nostalgic aft separation. :( sch days were like the best ok. and also our study sessions tgt!!! :) :) :) but it's good that we can meet up for dinner every now and then. catching up and still being involved with each other's lives. and they sang a birthday song in a really awkward place. like in the middle of nowhere. hahahaha. but it's okkk because we were chased out of the restaurant. it's small and too crowded seriously. but the food is yummy ok!!

wed was a small meeting :) zhang faster faster come back ok. we waiting for u to join our meetings u know. we miss u like u missed us!!! had botak jones for dinner. gel and i were like saying the standard really drop already. and they cut down a lot of sides u know. the chicken also not really nice. i prefer aston's much much more now. at first it was like the same but now... yar aston's seem better. aft that was kbox-ing session!! haven been there for really long and they changed their system for choosing songs. i totally hate that now ok. so hard to find songs and so hard to choose. sang a few korean songssss!! :) :) :) and taeyang is just so shuai. wedding dress is still my all time favourite. i love going to kbox not just to sing but to watch all the mtvs that has really realy shuai male characters in it!!! all the tall tall handsome onessss. u can just melt i tell u!!! i sing certain songs just because certain guys r inside :D aft i watch i wanna be an actress tooooo. mtv actress. can kiss all the REALLY SHUAI ppl. in real life also no such ppl like them! :( cai and gel gave me a really cute file that is self-made. hahahah. has my ELVIN NG and LEE MIN HO in it! i think right elvin ng is really the most handsome singaporean ever. singapore guys dont really have good standards and being able to produce ppl like elvin ng is like WOAH!!

sooo anyway last day at work today :D finally. most prob going back next term only for MINIMAL relief. like just a few days or what. so as to kill time. will miss the kids quite a lot coz they r such cuties. but once they r naughty and all that i will just get really really angry. they r monstrous. but u cant be angry at them for long coz they r just so adorable. i really like all the kidssss!! that's why i will miss them. and all their childish talkings. haha. u will be surprised what comes out of their mouths. it's really funny and cute :D

ohh i just rmb. daryl ong!! u must wear ur officer uniform, hold 2 cups, and say "ANYONE WANTS DRINKS?" one day ok!!! u must!!! why u refuse to do it?? it's hilarious okkkk. pls be a good entertainment!! dont u think the officer uniform looks like a waiter's clothes? and u know i saw a fellow waiter friend of urs on the bus today!

okk i have tons and tons of show to catch up!!! i shall watch like a lot of it be4 i go cambodia then come back and watch again. ppl dont miss me too much when i'm in cambodia ok!! i know it's very hard but try lah. hahahahahaah.

well I'd hope that since we're here anyway, that we could end up saying things we always needed to say, so we could end up staying

nowadays i keep listening to jay chou's songs!!! i dunno why. but i really really like his songs. as in his old songs. coz he also nv come out with any new album. haha. and particularly this song 说好的幸福呢







你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散乱了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了

一开始的不快乐
你用卡片拭写着
有些爱只给到这真的懂了


怎麽了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心 一一叙说着 你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得

你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢

the lyrics r really nice tooooo. anyway there's a whole lot of jay chou songs i really like. the first one that i liked was 暗号 the one with rui en!!! she's really pretty ok. once i heard this song i went on to listen to jay chou's other songs :D

我害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪

i've became such a cheena pok!! hahaha. but it's not ok. what's wrong with listening to chinese songs. they r not bad too. i cant stand ppl who detest chinese songs. they r chinese also and they look down on chinese songs. cheena songs got a lot nice ones.

someone just asked me recently how come i dont speak chinese. and i was like yar hor. i spoke chinese a lot last time. in pri sch. but once i get to sec sch not so much already. that caused my downfall in chinese!!! but i still do speak chinese ok. just not that much and maybe not as good. i think all chinese shld be able to speak chinese well. and dont play play ok i higher chinese one!!! :D that's what i said. hahaha. and he said that we shld start speaking chinese so can improve. but nowadays i cannot seem to be able to speak fully chinese sentences. and i forgot how to write a lot of words!! my colleague and i were talking abt how much our chinese deteriorated since we graduated from sch. yar i haven touched chinese for like 3 yrs already. but still i can recognise a lot of words ok.

anyway ytd we hosted the tanglin trust students in our sch. all the cute little ang moh kids!!! they r so adorable i tell u. with their blond hair and blue eyes. even those brown/black hair ones look really cute too. i love their features. and they r so vocal. very different compared to our own students. there was this red head boy!!! ultimate cuteness. and the girls look so preeety. they wore like black mary janes. really adorable with their uniform and they have frilly socks. little girls shld wear like this all the time. it's really nice. :D and we were like saying the boys will grow up to be really handsome. and and and there was this quite cute librarian/storyteller that came along with them. haha. he's really quite handsome ok. some teachers were like imitating their accent when we were having lunch. haha. it's really funny. we will nv be able to speak such good english because our accents will sound really really fake.

oh yar and i must say this. one of my students, named jeremy, is really funny. apparently he likes to stick to this girl called jaslyna. and he always want to partner her and play with her. so i asked them to form a circle, he immediately grabbed jaslyna's hand. and jaslyna didnt want to be with him, so she tried to shake it off and ran to her friend's side. her friend totally likes to stick to this boy called rui heng. so jaslyna went to hold rui heng's hand and wanted to get rid of jeremy. and rui heng was like telling jeremy to go away too. and u know what. JEREMY CRIED. like really cry like crazy. he was very sad. and jaslyna's friend, atiqah, said JEREMY ALWAYS WANT TO BE WITH JASLYNA BECAUSE HE SAY JASLYNA VERY PRETTY. see how superficial guys r even at such a young age!

but it was really cute. because he likes jaslyna and try so hard to be with her just to be shunned by jaslyna. and he totally doesnt know what is giving up ok. guys r like that. even if the girl dont like right they will still cling on hoping for their love to be reciprocated one day. face it lah guys, dont like that means dont like. stop being such assholes or stalkers. even the guy attitude is like reflected at such a young age!

in the end, to stop jeremy from crying, i let him stand beside me in the circle and hold my hand. because u know apprently i'm very pretty too and all the boys like to sit beside me and hold my hand. HAHAHA. such a joke right. i'm so adored by little boys. i think i shld be a cougar. so he was really happy because of that. and he took the place of this boy called wei zhi. and wei zhi immediately ran to my the other side to hold my the other hand because he wants to be with me. glad to know i'm so wanted by boys.

i really think all this little kids scene is like very insightful and cute at the same time. it really reflects what's going to happen when they grow up because guys r really behaving like that. and that class has a lot of inter-racial relationships! hahahaha. but they r so young still.

i think i'm like writing a lot. but the story is really a bit long. anyway ss501 album is coming out sooooon!!!!! excited. my fren and i were like being really hyper in the staffroom coz we were looking at our ss501 stuff. and she's gonna order their album for me at a really cheap price. special album somemore! hope to hear good news soooon. and i also found a new friend who loves big bang like me!!! we were like talking so excitedly abt big bang lah. they r seriously the bombzzz. love them. i just love korean boys

let's rewrite an ending that fits, instead of a hollywood horror

i've been hearing a lot of ppl talking abt this article which was published saying that teachers r really really stressed up. i haven even seen the article yet but it seems like everyone knows abt it!! ok i know it's my fault. coz i totally dont read the news unless something really big happens. but anyway some of my frens/colleagues were discussing it. some ppl get really turned off because of this. like saying that teachers have no work-life balance. but i think to have a work-life balance is really up to u. not just teachers. some ppl r just workaholics without work-life balance. it doesnt just apply to the teaching industry.

it's quite true that teachers have a lot of stuff to do like admin + teaching + welfare. but not everyone stays in sch till 10pm everyday and do work right. i think those r the minority. of coz marking takes up a lot of time and cca and all sorts of thing. but it will not take up all of ur free time. i think ppl keep saying teachers have no life because a lot of teachers r really passionate abt teaching. so they devote a lot of energy and time to it. a lot more than required hence resulting in no work-life balance. actually there r a lot of teachers who have a lot of time. it's just up to the individual. maybe teachers can be really passionate abt their job because it's really quite a noble career. like having to put up with all the students and teaching. ok it can be quite fulfilling if ur students turn out really good. so i think that's why a lot of teachers put their heart and soul into their jobs, so as to see their student excel. that's sort of like their life and u cannot say they have no work-life balance because they r putting effort into their lives ok!!

i think i sound a bit confusing but...... nvm. the really bad thing abt being a teacher i think is that u will really get high blood pressure + wrinkles at a really young age. a lot of my colleagues were like saying that it's really hard to control ur emotions in the classroom. especially if u r in a bad mood. just little things that the students do make u really angry. and sometimes the students really do retarded things i tell u. so ur emotions will go up and down like a roller coaster. cannot fully control at all because it all depends on what the student is doing.

and i tell u scolding ppl is really tiring!!! it really drains the energy out of a person. coz u have to shout, get angry and think of the words to say. yar. it's really really tiring for me. i hate scolding students. and i heard a lot of teachers say this when i was a student. i didnt really believe it then because i think they r just sadistic and enjoy scolding us that's why they keep shouting at us. now then i know why they totally hate scolding ppl. me tooooo i tell u! it's seriously worst than running or any form of exercise. it's like u can feel ur whole blood pressure rising and it's not a very wonderful feeling to be angry all the time. i feel so sad for those angry ppl who hate their life. they must be feeling really terrible! but anyway what i want to say is that it's really hard for teachers to control their emotions and hence they will get sick all the time. u know when u dont have a constant mood u will fall ill. so it's really sad ok.

no wonder nowadays i've been getting sick very often. and i get irritated by ppl very easily. it's not the students. it's just normal ppl. because these ppl r like not children and i will think that they r able to get stuff without having me repeat and repeat and treating them like kids. but a lot of ppl just dont get it that's why i get seriously irritated. i'm becoming a moody person!! :( sad right. learning how to control ur emotions in a classroom really takes years of practise!

and i realised i just missed an opportunity!!!! coz i totally didnt realise it in the past and now when i suddenly rmb it's really sadzzzz. nvm. life is full of regrets. but just dont take them too seriously. even if u have a regret now u can rectify it with other chances that r happening in the future so be happy that u will still have future chances to not regret ur life!!

okkk i wanna go back to watching my show. have been watching glee and i think it's really really nice!!! quite interesting. a bit high school musical-ish but i really like it. it's hilarious!!!

now the story's played out like this, just like a paperback novel

i just suddenly have this feeling... ok maybe not so sudden but seeing some stuff and all that i think that my life is seriously sad and it totally sucks ok. like quite bad u know. because of the possibilities of things in a few months time!! i think it's karma. it's really really karma i tell u!

i shall not be mean. i shall not be mean. i shall not be mean.

this will go on for the next few months ok. i dont want to have karma!

anyway had a short movie outing with 4/4 clique!! :D carmie jinger sheryl charlene and teng. TENG U REALLY SHLDNT BE THERE I TELL U! haha. she was a naughty girl. instead of studying she watched ip man 2 with us. she said since she was in orchard she will just join us. excuses. haha. ok lah all of us do that sort of thing so it's forgivable! anyway ip man 2 was really nice ok. so different from when i watched ip man. i just laughed like crazy when i watched ip man lah. i thot it was not bad but u know all the chinese kungfu thing just makes me laugh. i dunno why also. but ip man 2 was abt chinese pride k!! haha. jinger said she's proud to be a chinese. i'm erm... i dunno. i'm not that into chinese kungfu. i'm not into boxing either. i dont promote violence u know.

really enjoyed the short movie outing with these ppl :) :) :) dinner again soooon coz i cant join them for dinner on tues. haizzz.

oh and my cousin just told me that because she works in raffles place she drinks eskimo milk tea everyday for lunch and another flavour of eskimo drink be4 she goes home. wow what a life! haha. but i think if it's me i will do that toooo.

2 more weeks till school ends!! yesssss :D i will have a long break soon aft a hectic term. i cant wait lah.

how the hell did we wind up like this? why weren't we able, to see the signs that we missed.

i shall blog abt the past week which i haven even blogged yet due to constant digressing. too busy to be uploading pictures and typing already! that's why i love the weekends :)

so on last wed which was like 28th april, had brenda's birthday dinner. she sort of expected that all of us will be there already. haha. so it's not a surprise anymore. ate at thai express and just sit down to talk and enjoy ourselves :) birthday celebrations r actually good catching up sessions. unlike celebrations last time in sch.

sat, 1st may, met up with gay and pin for lunch at this jap place. craving for jap food. but i realise that i keep eating jap food but haven really ate a lot of korean food! i guess jap food is more popular in singapore. but i still want my korean ok!!!! just had a short meetup like only lunch coz no. 1, lim yong pin, as usual, was late for super long. and no. 2 lim yong pin had to rush off to meet his boyfriends. being really gay, he ps both girls to join his lovers. it's ok since he is joining gay's gay dynasty. haha. aft that went shopping with gay at somerset 313. didnt get much stuff. but gay was sadder. she cannot find anything at all. then off to westmall for family dinner at teng's father's restaurant! the food was really nice ok. nv sat at the huge table be4!

then on this tues which was 3rd may, met up with cai and gel. an outing without zhang! haha. we r gonna have numerous outings without u ok. who ask u go cheena land! haha. but we nv forget u during out outings. u will always be in our hearts :) so rmb us in cheena land also ok!! we became budget and ate at aston's.

i just realised we forgot to complain abt the waitress at aston's!!! this auntie right, whose name is ANGELINE. she is really really really rude to us ok. what kind of service is this lah. she like scolded us because cai and i said we wanna wait for gel to come be4 we order. the auntie said, "if it's like that then i cannot give u seats first". i didnt know aston's got this kind of rule. it's ok if she told us politely and nicely BUT SHE WAS PLAIN RUDE. i cant stand it ok. i think shld write a complain coz we forgot to feedback lah. anyway aft that we were ready to order, called her a lot of times SHE JUST REFUSED TO TAKE OUR ORDER. like seriously!! what kind of waitress is she. we already said a lot of times and she just totally skipped us a few times. then i got really pissed and i stopped her to tell her AGAIN that we haven ordered. and she said to us in a really rude and impatient tone, " I KNOW!" and she say she take the order of the group behind us first because it's only 2 ppl and there were seats. i seriously felt like slapping her disgusting face. she was sooo sooo sooo rude. i shld write to the newspaper or something. it's the aston's at cathay everyone. if u see that auntie beware of her!! and her behaviour was like FERGIE of golden rooster also!

anyway we just sat there to talk and have dinner and walked arnd orchard. we walked to orchard central and the restaurants at the rooftop were really nice and high class ok. and it's a good place for taking pictures coz there r a lot of nice views! :)

some aston's pictures!













and also at orcahrd central.

the really nice escalator



















on the rooftop :)


















and we missed gel because... hahaha.









so the next day, which was 4th may, met with jiexin and charlene for dinner! haven met jiexin for likle super super long. we shld have dinner tgt more often. another great catchup session because we graduated for quite a while already. schoolmates for like 6yrs ok. we stayed super long at the restaurant to talk because there's just nv ending stuff to talk abt. :D and the food was great too. jiexin can really take spicy stuff hor.

some pictures that we took!









the salad that looks gross the first time i saw it but it tastes really nice. especially the leaves!! i feel like a goat when i'm eating the leaves lah.









coffee and beer. reminds me of a really really old chinese song. it's an oldie.










check out jiexin. the queen of unglamness.



















i love meeting up with old friends :)

anyway something really hilarious ok. i was punishing my student for being very naughty and u know what he did when i made him stand against the wall?? HE SANG AND DANCED TO LADY GAGA'S BAD ROMANCE!!! i was so shock ok. still have the mood to sing. and the thing is, he knows the whole dance and the whole song. he was entertaining his fellow classmate beside him who was being punished too. such a cheeky boy lah. i'm surprised that he knows how to dance ok. and i told him straight in his face IF U WANT TO BE LADY GAGA, U CAN GO OUT TO THE CORRIDOR AND SHOW EVERYONE THAT. then he stopped. must be stern ok! anyway his dance movements just totally reminds me of the ultimate picture of hu nian (tiger year) ok! hahahahahaha.

and also everyone pls buy my cambodia fundraising shirts from me ok!!! check out the email i sent u. it's not a spam!!!

actually i really feel like going for jay chou's concert but then right i got no money and i dont think i can get the tickets also... haizzz. i really quite like jay chou lor. coz his songs so nice.

actually i wanted to say other stuff but i forgot already. ok nvm. i think i shall just end here coz the post is really too long!

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

is this a habit of yours? falling off of stuff?

only when you're there to catch me.

u know i stalk ur facebook pictures like crazy??

i think i sound retarded doing that but then it's just candy for the eye u know! a refreshing sight aft a busy day! but anyway i think fb is quite a safe place because i dont think u can really see who stalks u right?

ok anyone who reads this pls dont go arnd telling ppl that i stalk ppl on fb ok!! it's a secret. :D

anyway shall blog abt stuff another time. i'm seriously a bit lazy. need the full 3 days break that i can get be4 it gets busy again.

meeting many friends sooooon. i cant wait! :)

there's just too much that time cannot erase